A few months ago I recorded a video, having a bit of reflection of things. I am very aware how blessed my life is and I thank God everyday that it is so amazing. But also there are things I want to work towards, I’d like to have in my life and things I’d like to do. So looking aspiration-ally at things and then feel guilty that I want to add more to my life.

My work and ministry are such a part of my every day that sometimes it does feel that it would be easier if I had a ‘normal’ (though what does that actually mean?) job where I didn’t have to care about it and could just come home, pick up my pay slip and live for the weekend. But I know I would get bored, frustrated and feel unfulfilled with life if I did. Then I feel guilty for thinking that I’d want that even if it was for five minutes. And so the cycle repeats itself every few months.

Anyone else feel like this sometimes?